A Place of Waiting

I have been convicted a lot lately about waiting. 

We have all heard or even said this little phrase that has been weighing on my mind. 

The little phrase of I can't wait until I grow up, I can't wait until I finish school, I can't wait until I get married, I can't wait for this to be over, I can't wait for ... you fill in the blank. 

Why do we wish to reach a point in life before we are there? 

Life is a journey with ups and downs, but that journey is God's tool to teach us lessons.

 Sometimes I feel like it is so easy to get focused on what is coming next that we miss the exciting experiences along the way.  The important experiences.

These past three years in medical school have seriously taught me a lot.
Sometimes honestly I have wished for this chapter in life to be closed.
Get on track for some type of normalcy.
Start making money.
 Have some type of known schedule.
Not having to spend countless days and nights manning down the fort by myself.
Ryan not  having bear the weight of constantly having to pass the next test,
impressing such and such doctor,
writing the perfect letter.
Majority of the time though, I have been happy and content where we are in life.
In fact, a lot of the time I feel like time is going WAY to fast.

This journey so far has taught me patience.
I have learned to be a better wife, mother, and friend, or at least I would like to think I have.
I have found joy and happiness in the little things in life.
I can honestly say I am blessed beyond measure.
Going through this has taught me to really appreciate the smallest things,
and even though it has been a challenging three years; it has been some of the best of my life.

I have watched my four year old grow and mature.
I gave birth to my son.
They both are my pure pride and joy.
I have watched my husband work hard and somehow balance being the best dad and husband.
I have watched the four of us grow into what I can call my "perfect" family.

So today as it marked the first day of Ryan's last year of medical school I am excited about the future, but I have enjoyed this place of waiting and journey.
I wouldn't wish these past three years to have gone any faster (Ryan probably has a different story).

This place of waiting is almost at a close. One more year, a fun year, full of exciting adventures and the end result Ryan will be a doctor and we will be on to a new place for his career.


I will wait though and continue to take in every day, hour, and second. I don't want to wish it away because this journey is what makes me, me. I don't want to miss any of it dwelling on the future when it will come fast enough. I want to experience the good and the bad whole heartedly.
So I am glad to wait.

Ryan's first day of his last year!