I Have No Control (Finding Peace)

 I like to feel like I have some type of control on circumstances. 

I want to have a plan, execute it, and everything to go exactly how I see it. 

That's me. That's how I am. That's where I find my peaceful state of mind.

 In life, a lot of choices and circumstances can fit into the category of you have a say and some type of control, but what about those things you can't control?

This is something near and dear to my heart right now. I'm having to wake up each day and not know

where the next 5 or 6 years of our life will be located. 

I like to KNOW. I want to KNOW. I feel like I need to KNOW NOW!

Every move we have had I have been able to plan and work myself up for the process.

Until March 15th though we are at a stand still. We could be moving, we could be staying. We could be moving to Ohio for a year and then back to Texas. We could be moving to New Hampshire.

 I might have to pack and I might not.

We. Simply. Do. Not. Know. 

and I find it very hard to be calm.

We are at a place of waiting...

As I am almost completely being unwound by "what ifs" and "hows" in our life, God is ALWAYS there knowing exactly where we will be. 

 It hit me this morning that worrying over what is going to happen is not going to help. 

Not one bit.

Today Audra and I were reading Ephesians 6 and it was talking about living life as Christ as a pleasant aroma to Him and I was reminded if I am to live my life as Christ, I can't worry. 

 Philippians 4: 6-7  

Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.

If I am worrying then I cannot have God's peace. 

It goes against my nature to release my worries and my control on circumstances, but in the releasing of my worries, I will find peace, why am I not doing it?

Why am I fretting? 

God is in control. I am not. 

Maybe this situation is purely a teaching lesson for me. To let God lead us as a family and not to worry. 

I mean he watches the sparrow, right? 

He definitely has our best interest and is in control of where we are supposed to be.

I am trying to release and let peace come.